I know I've said this before.

I'm still here. I've been so busy with the kids and projects, I didn't anticipate having to fight my kids for the computer this summer, suddenly they want to use it all the time. Plus, I've been getting one acting job after another, which is a good thing but keeping me from writing. I'm currently working on 'Seussical the Musical', I play the Mayor's Wife. It's a great role and I'm having a lot of fun developing the character.

It's funny, the Theatre company I've been working for always gave me chorus roles. No big deal, I'm not one that has to be in the lime light all the time, I just love doing theater so I'll take anything to be on stage. The next to the last show I did with them they, I was in the chorus again, but I got to do this drunken scene. The directors kept commenting on how funny I was. Shinny! Then the next show I actually got a part. People that I've worked with before came and saw the show and kept telling me that they didn't know I could act like that, how good I was. I had mixed feeling about this. First, I've never been very good with compliments. Second, did I suck in all the other shows? Then the director said that he expects big things from me as the Mayor's Wife, he was complimenting me but I felt a lot of pressure. I don't want to disappoint them. I know, just do your best and I will. I just have this fear that I will fail. Ok, no good thinking like that. I will be great, right! I will give it my all.

I started writing again and realized how much I've missed it. I've totally reworked it. I'm only about 3 chapters in but it wasn't going where I wanted it to go and the words weren't coming to me. I felt like I was forcing it to go where I wanted it to go and it was really resisting me. After reworking it, I feel much better. I'm new to this novel writing thing, well writing thin in general, but I know that sometimes you just have to scrap it and start over. I still feel like it's more of an outline than a draft but now it's going where I want it to go and the characters seem happier, at least in my head. I've turned it in to my writing buddies and they haven't said anything yet. In fact, I haven't heard from one in over a week. I'm afraid she has gotten feed up with me and booted me. To bad, I really enjoyed her writing. She was very easy to read, she had such a great flow to her work and her comments back to me where very helpful. They weren't 'oh, I loved it' and 'great work', they were actually helpful. Since I'm new to this, it was nice to have someone who seemed to know what they were doing. I hope she hasn't booted me and will contact me soon.

Well, got to run. I need to practice for rehearsal tonight and I think my kids would like to use the computer again.

Shelleigh