This coming summer the theatre company that I'm working for will be doing the musical "The Sound of Music". I have always wanted to play the part of Maria but at my age and weight I know that will never happen. If I lose the weight I know I can play the part, whether I get it or not is another question, but I know I can play it.
So the plan. I talked with someone who has recently lost weight and she said that lifting weights was the key for her losing weight. My new goal is to lift weights at least 4 days a week and 3 days of cardio training. Before I was only focused on cardio and I saw no results. My hope is that I will start to see the results with the weight training. My sister focuses on weights and she has lost weight to. So will see.
I start today. We'll see how it goes.
Shel
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Openning Night
Pride and Prejudice opened tonight.
I had spent most of the week stressed about finding someone to watch my boys. My parent usually watch them for me but my dad needed surgery this week so they couldn't. I had called some friends and finally found one.
When I dropped my boys off at her house I realize I left the phone number to the theatre in my other purse. I told her that if she needed to get a hold of me she could find the phone number on the theatre's website and call me. She assured me that nothing would happen. She had watched my boys before and everything was always fine. I wasn't worried, really.
We had our finally dress rehearsal and then opened. It was great to have an audience. It does something to you as an actor. You really feed off the audience. You really want them to enjoy what you are doing. Sure there is some selfishness and ego in a person who preform but you really just want the audience to have a good time and enjoy it. We are always worried that they aren't enjoying it, so it is important as an audience member to be responsive to the performers. The more responsive you are the better performance you will get.
Opening night went great. The audience really seemed to like it. It was made up of mostly friends and family but the cast had a lot of fun performing for them. There were a few little mistakes but nothing major. Mr. Bennet called me, Mrs. Bennet, Mrs. Collin but he quickly corrected himself. Lady Catherin completely forgot her lines but she made a great save. She was suppose to talk about Lizzy being engaged to Mr. Darcy but she went completely blank. Lizzy tried to help by saying something about Mr. Darcey being engaged but Lady Catherin said, "No he's not engaged." Then she realized that 'yes' she was suppose to be talking about his engagement and she quickly added, "He's not engaged, it is his destiny to be engaged to my daughter." It was a good save. Although, she is totally kicking herself. And I tripped and tore my dress on the curtain call. Besides that I think it went really well, I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
When I got home I was really looking forward to seeing my husband, but he was in a bad mood. He picked up the boys and MacGregor had fallen and has a huge scrap and lump on his forehead. The babysitter told my husband that I didn't leave any contact information with her. I tried. I told her what to do if she needed me, but apparently she forgot. Which I can't really blame her. In the moment, I might of forgot too but I wouldn't tell her husband that she didn't leave any contact info. But it was my fault too, I should have tried harder to get the info to her. Bad mommy.
I think my husband's tired of me doing Theatre. This is my 4th show in a row and I'm doing the next one and really want to audition for the one after that. He has been very distant from me and complaining that we don't do anything together anymore. I don't agree with this. I am home a lot but he has been choosing to play video games with his friends instead of spending time with me. So apparently, it's OK for him to leave me for the night and for him to do something that he enjoys but how dare I leave and do something I enjoy. I know that he likes me to do theatre because he knows it makes me happy. Likewise, I like him to play video games with his friends because I know it makes him happy. It just feels like sometimes he gets mad at me for it. I never get made at him for playing video games. Really, I don't.
Well, besides the mishaps in the play, MacGregor getting hurt, and my husband being mad at me, opening night was a great success.
Shel
I had spent most of the week stressed about finding someone to watch my boys. My parent usually watch them for me but my dad needed surgery this week so they couldn't. I had called some friends and finally found one.
When I dropped my boys off at her house I realize I left the phone number to the theatre in my other purse. I told her that if she needed to get a hold of me she could find the phone number on the theatre's website and call me. She assured me that nothing would happen. She had watched my boys before and everything was always fine. I wasn't worried, really.
We had our finally dress rehearsal and then opened. It was great to have an audience. It does something to you as an actor. You really feed off the audience. You really want them to enjoy what you are doing. Sure there is some selfishness and ego in a person who preform but you really just want the audience to have a good time and enjoy it. We are always worried that they aren't enjoying it, so it is important as an audience member to be responsive to the performers. The more responsive you are the better performance you will get.
Opening night went great. The audience really seemed to like it. It was made up of mostly friends and family but the cast had a lot of fun performing for them. There were a few little mistakes but nothing major. Mr. Bennet called me, Mrs. Bennet, Mrs. Collin but he quickly corrected himself. Lady Catherin completely forgot her lines but she made a great save. She was suppose to talk about Lizzy being engaged to Mr. Darcy but she went completely blank. Lizzy tried to help by saying something about Mr. Darcey being engaged but Lady Catherin said, "No he's not engaged." Then she realized that 'yes' she was suppose to be talking about his engagement and she quickly added, "He's not engaged, it is his destiny to be engaged to my daughter." It was a good save. Although, she is totally kicking herself. And I tripped and tore my dress on the curtain call. Besides that I think it went really well, I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
When I got home I was really looking forward to seeing my husband, but he was in a bad mood. He picked up the boys and MacGregor had fallen and has a huge scrap and lump on his forehead. The babysitter told my husband that I didn't leave any contact information with her. I tried. I told her what to do if she needed me, but apparently she forgot. Which I can't really blame her. In the moment, I might of forgot too but I wouldn't tell her husband that she didn't leave any contact info. But it was my fault too, I should have tried harder to get the info to her. Bad mommy.
I think my husband's tired of me doing Theatre. This is my 4th show in a row and I'm doing the next one and really want to audition for the one after that. He has been very distant from me and complaining that we don't do anything together anymore. I don't agree with this. I am home a lot but he has been choosing to play video games with his friends instead of spending time with me. So apparently, it's OK for him to leave me for the night and for him to do something that he enjoys but how dare I leave and do something I enjoy. I know that he likes me to do theatre because he knows it makes me happy. Likewise, I like him to play video games with his friends because I know it makes him happy. It just feels like sometimes he gets mad at me for it. I never get made at him for playing video games. Really, I don't.
Well, besides the mishaps in the play, MacGregor getting hurt, and my husband being mad at me, opening night was a great success.
Shel
Monday, October 11, 2010
Laptop
I finally got a laptop. I can't tell you how happy I am about this. We bought it yesterday for our 15th wedding anniversary presant. Well sort of, we also just needed one. I was so sick of fighting with my boys for time on the computer. You would think, that as the parent, I wouldn't have to fight but sadly that is not the case. It's not that I gave into them, its just that we all need the computer.
Now, I feel that I will be able to get more writing done. I like to write at night but for various reasons I never seem to be able to. Now I will be able to write whenever I want and the only person I will have to fight with is my husband and since he's gone half the time, it's mine:)
Shel
Now, I feel that I will be able to get more writing done. I like to write at night but for various reasons I never seem to be able to. Now I will be able to write whenever I want and the only person I will have to fight with is my husband and since he's gone half the time, it's mine:)
Shel
Friday, October 8, 2010
Out of Body Experience!
Yesterday, I was lying in bed taking a nap with my husband and I had a really weird experience that has really shaken me.
As we were lying there, I was feeling very calm and relaxed. Initially, I wasn't even sure if I was going to fall asleep, I just wanted to rest for a minute. Suddenly, I felt my body start to tingle, especially my arms and I realized that I couldn't move. It wasn't like I tried to move, I just didn't think I could if I tried. Frankly, I didn't care, I didn't want to move, I liked the feeling. I began to feel like I was rising in my body not out of it. I had this floating feeling and thought maybe I had lifted off my bed a little. I've had this feeling before and I've always liked it but this time it was a little different. I was looking out through my body. I call it the Sky-light effect. With a sky-light, you can see the sky outside but you know that you are inside looking out. You can see the outline of the sky-light so you know you are inside. Well this is what I experienced. Slowly, I began to rise closer to the sky-light or the edge of myself. As I got closer to the edge I began to hear voices coming from underneath my floating body. They were yelling "NO", "Not yet", "Your not ready", and "it's not your time." As I got closer to the edge the yelling got louder and more intense, but I didn't care. I liked the feeling and didn't want it to stop. Finally, I hit the edge. In earlier experiences once I hit the edge I always snapped back into my body but this time about an inch of my body broke through the edge. The voices sounded panicked. Suddenly, I was snapped violently back into my body. The snap was so hard it hurt and my whole body jerked as if I just fell onto my bed. My husband even asked me if I was "OK". Afterwards, I felt angry that the people jerked me back and I have this insane longing to go back.
I realized that this was so trick of the mind but it felt so real and is haunting me. I laid in bed today trying to recreate it with no success. But this desire to do it again is eating at me.
Has anyone else out there had an experience like this?
Shel
As we were lying there, I was feeling very calm and relaxed. Initially, I wasn't even sure if I was going to fall asleep, I just wanted to rest for a minute. Suddenly, I felt my body start to tingle, especially my arms and I realized that I couldn't move. It wasn't like I tried to move, I just didn't think I could if I tried. Frankly, I didn't care, I didn't want to move, I liked the feeling. I began to feel like I was rising in my body not out of it. I had this floating feeling and thought maybe I had lifted off my bed a little. I've had this feeling before and I've always liked it but this time it was a little different. I was looking out through my body. I call it the Sky-light effect. With a sky-light, you can see the sky outside but you know that you are inside looking out. You can see the outline of the sky-light so you know you are inside. Well this is what I experienced. Slowly, I began to rise closer to the sky-light or the edge of myself. As I got closer to the edge I began to hear voices coming from underneath my floating body. They were yelling "NO", "Not yet", "Your not ready", and "it's not your time." As I got closer to the edge the yelling got louder and more intense, but I didn't care. I liked the feeling and didn't want it to stop. Finally, I hit the edge. In earlier experiences once I hit the edge I always snapped back into my body but this time about an inch of my body broke through the edge. The voices sounded panicked. Suddenly, I was snapped violently back into my body. The snap was so hard it hurt and my whole body jerked as if I just fell onto my bed. My husband even asked me if I was "OK". Afterwards, I felt angry that the people jerked me back and I have this insane longing to go back.
I realized that this was so trick of the mind but it felt so real and is haunting me. I laid in bed today trying to recreate it with no success. But this desire to do it again is eating at me.
Has anyone else out there had an experience like this?
Shel
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Pride and Prejudice
Suessical is over and was a big success. We were sold out every night and had lines down the block. This was the first play I didn't want to see end. I loved doing it and would do it again in a heart beat, half a heart beat.
But on to new thing. I was just cast as Mrs. Bennet in Pride and Prejudice. I am completely freaking out. My fear of this role is for completely different reasons than my fear of the last role. Jane Austen fans take these characters very personally. They have their own ideas of how the character should be and how they shouldn't be. They have no fear of telling you you screwed up the character. I just don't want to disappoint the JA fans who come and see the show. I know I can't please everyone but I want them to enjoy my interpretation of Mrs. Bennet.
I'm loving playing her. She is so crazy and full of energy. I can't wait tell I hit that point as an actor and completely lose myself in the character.
Last night, we had our first off book run through. Besides half the cast absent for the evening, prior commitments and stomach flu, I think it went well. I remembered most of my lines but I completely screwed up peoples names. I kept calling Mr. Bennet Mr. Bingly. JA and I have to have a talk about naming her characters. They both start with 'B' and that is causing me problems. We'll do tea and figure it all out, I'm sure.lol
I love JA. I want to be JA but with wizards and dragons. If they can do JA with zombies I can do it with wizards and dragons, right? My book will be titled "The Magical World of Pride and Prejudice." Mrs. Bennet is a witch and puts a love spell on Mr. Bingly. Well that's all I got so far, it's a real work in progress, or not, well maybe. Who knows. I'm going to kick this around a little and see where it goes.
Well, I'm off to go over my lines.
Shel
But on to new thing. I was just cast as Mrs. Bennet in Pride and Prejudice. I am completely freaking out. My fear of this role is for completely different reasons than my fear of the last role. Jane Austen fans take these characters very personally. They have their own ideas of how the character should be and how they shouldn't be. They have no fear of telling you you screwed up the character. I just don't want to disappoint the JA fans who come and see the show. I know I can't please everyone but I want them to enjoy my interpretation of Mrs. Bennet.
I'm loving playing her. She is so crazy and full of energy. I can't wait tell I hit that point as an actor and completely lose myself in the character.
Last night, we had our first off book run through. Besides half the cast absent for the evening, prior commitments and stomach flu, I think it went well. I remembered most of my lines but I completely screwed up peoples names. I kept calling Mr. Bennet Mr. Bingly. JA and I have to have a talk about naming her characters. They both start with 'B' and that is causing me problems. We'll do tea and figure it all out, I'm sure.lol
I love JA. I want to be JA but with wizards and dragons. If they can do JA with zombies I can do it with wizards and dragons, right? My book will be titled "The Magical World of Pride and Prejudice." Mrs. Bennet is a witch and puts a love spell on Mr. Bingly. Well that's all I got so far, it's a real work in progress, or not, well maybe. Who knows. I'm going to kick this around a little and see where it goes.
Well, I'm off to go over my lines.
Shel
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