Monday, August 8, 2011

I made a break through

I have finally broke my plateau I was on.  I lost my initial few pounds but couldn't get past 193 lbs.  Well, today I weighed in at 192.6.  I was so excited. 

I'm really enjoying this raw diet.  Today, I a marinaded portobella mushroom with veggies.  It was delicious.  The rest to the day I will have my green drink: 1 head of romaine lettuce, kale, spinach, lemon, orange, and 2 apples.  I love this drink and look forward to it.

I really think this will work for me because it's not a diet but a life style.  This is how I want to be, how I want to live and that is why I know it will work for me.  It's not something that will work for everyone but it's what I want and the life path I'm choosing.

Shel

Saturday, August 6, 2011

So I did the raw diet for 7 days.  I didn't lose any weight.  I really thought I would so this was very depressing.  But on the upside I felt great, I loved it so I'm going to continue.

I went on vacation for 3 days and eat crap and I felt like crap.  So today I'm starting raw food again today.  I'm really going to do a lot of juicing.  I make this juice out of a head of romaine lettuce, 2 cups of spinach, an orange, a lemon, and 2 apples.  It is so good, I look forward to it. 

I'm really looking forward to doing this and I hope to convert my family to it.  I realized that I'm poisoning my children by giving them the processed crap I feed them.  I am realistic, I don't think that they will be 100% raw nor do I think I will but we will be as much raw as we can be.  I really want my husband to do this but I think he will be the hardest one to convert.  But I'm going to do it. 

I'm not sure why I didn't lose any weight but I don't care.  I know that this is the way to go.  I'm committing to this for 30 days starting today.

Monday, July 25, 2011

I'm Raw

Weigh in: 194.6

I decided not to do the HCG diet at least not now.  I have decided to go Raw.  I tried it once before and lost weight and felt great.  I stopped because it was time consuming and expensive.  I've learned a little more about it and really feel like I can do it this time.  I'm not 100% raw, I like meat.  I will have meat 1 or 2 times a week. 

I choose this because I can make things that I enjoy and I don't have to feel guilty about eating them.  I made cranberry macaroons yesterday that are wonderful and because they are raw I can eat the whole batch if I want.  I didn't but I could. 

I'm also very excited about this diet.  I don't even think of it as a diet but more of a life style choice.  When I tried the HCG diet I felt depressed and deprived when starting it. 

So this is me know.  I'll keep you posted.

Shel

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

HCG day 6

Weigh in:  195.4 lbs
gain: 1.6 lbs

Ok, so the last two days have been really bad.  I haven't followed my eating plan.  I had an audition and I think I was a little stressed by it so I ate my way through it.  This is what I always do.  But today, I'm determined to be good and follow my eating plan.  I'll let you know how I did later today.  I'm at war with myself.

Shel

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Day 4 &5

Weigh in: 193.2 lbs
loss:  1.6 lbs
total: 6 lbs

Day 5:

Weigh in:  193.8 lbs
gain:  .6 lbs


Yesterday I broke down and ate poorly.  This seems to be what I do around this time.  I already started today poorly by eating 2 fajitas.  I will do better for the rest of the day.  I'm weak and gave in, I'll be strong for the rest of the day.

Shel

Sunday, July 17, 2011

HCG day 3

Weigh in:  194.8 lbs
Loss: 1.8 lbs
Total:  4.4 lbs


I've decided not to post what I eat, that's boring.  I will just post whether or not I followed my diet food plan. 

Yesterday I went to Walmart and I noticed what was in peoples carts.  The skinnier people had fruits and veggies and other healthy products.  They also had some junk food but everyone needs a treat.  In the carts of the fat people there was all this junk.  There were chips, donuts, candy, frozen dinners, and other processed food.  In reality the only difference between the two carts was that thin people had more fruits and veggies while the fat people had more crap. 

What irritates me is that the thin people could eat the crap without consequence.  Where as the fat people will pay whether they know it or not.  I would love to be  the the type of person who could eat whatever they want.  I had a cart that looked more like the thin people's carts but I'm still fat, why?

I'm not delusional I know that the thin people live a much more active lifestyle than the fat people but that doesn't take away the frustration.  I know many thin people who do nothing and stay thin.  They call it good genetics.

Can genetics really be the answer? 

If it were all about genetics than there would be no place for hypnosis or behavioral therapies like Weight Watcher and Nutria-systems.  So can changing the way you think change your genetics?

There is a school of thought that environment effects the genes not the other way around.  In the old school, scientist believed that genes effected the environment, so our genes make us who we are.  The new school believes that the environment we live in effects our genes.  My school of thought, it's both.

I don't think it's as simple as either or. 

The way we live our lives today in America, our environment, has obviously effected our genes.  Our world is filled with ways to effect your genes.

Take grocery shopping.  Have you ever bought produce, fruits and veggies?  They are expensive.  If you are shopping on a budget, you will use up your money very quickly.  But you would be surprised how far you can stretch your dollar when you buy crap.  For $4 I bought 24 bags of top raman but it cost me almost $7 for 3 grapefruit. 

My husband always tells me that we need to eat better.  I agree, we do.  Then he says that he is sure we could save money on buying food.  This is an oxymoron or a paradox to me.

An oxymoron because saving money and eating better do not go together.  And a paradox because I can't figure out how to do that.

My husband has never gone shopping with the kids.  Well, I can't say never, he would argue that, but rarely.  When you shop with kids they want all the bright fun looking food they see.  Which is another one of the problems with our environment, we think of food as fun.  We think of food as entertainment not nutrition.  When we think of nutrition we think of dull, boring food.  No excitement.  Americans need excitement from their food. 

In 2007 the US Surgeon's General said that nutritional foods need to be more affordable.  Yes, they do need to be affordable but even if they were I don't think people would know what to do with them.  The problem is that Americans are lazy.  We live in a world where everything his handed to us.  We don't have to wait for anything.  If you miss a movie in the theater it will be out on video in a few months or you can downloaded it on the Internet from a pirated site.  So the idea of getting all these nutritious ingredients and putting them together and waiting for it all to come together seems overwhelming and too hard compared to when you have all this processed food at hand just to rip open and eat, barely any waiting.  Honestly, I think people would spend a little more for the convenience of crap food vs nutrition while all the long they complain about being fat. 

As a fat American I feel that our problem is cost & convenience.

I don't think that this is something the government can do for us.  No matter how much they want to nanny us changing the way a person thinks is a personal issue not a governmental one.  To quote Michael Jackson, "If you want to make a change...start with the man in the mirror."  I'm not saying that the government can't do things to help but it's really up to the individual to change their own life.

The 'man in the mirror', is a topic for another day but I do have some thoughts on that.  Sometimes I just don't recognize the person staring back at me.  Stay tune for further thoughts on that.

Well that's enough BS for one day.

Cheers,
Shel

Saturday, July 16, 2011

HCG day 2

Weigh in day 2:  196.6
Loss:  2.6 lbs.


Don't worry, I know that the weight loss is just water weight.  On this diet you have to spend two days loading, eating any crappy food you want.  By the time your done your so bloated you can't help but loss water weight the first day of the diet.

I'm going to have to be honest, I did eat some rice a roni last night.  I couldn't help myself.  I had to clean my kids plates, right?

Today's Food

Breakfast:
Grapefruit 1/2
Coffee

Lunch:
fish 4oz
2 celery sticks
water

I thought I was full after eating this but it turns out I was still hungry.  I went to the store and thought I would die of starvation.  But at last, I popped some gum, sugar free, and was fine.

Snack:
coffee
apple

Dinner:
Steak
sauteed veggies

It was really hard to make dinner for my family.  To sit with them while they ate the food I made for them was torture but I made it through.

Tomorrow I will tell you about my shopping trip.

Cheers,
Shel


Friday, July 15, 2011

HCG

So, today I started the hcg diet.  On this diet you take drops and eat a 500 cal diet.  I'm nervous about this but I'm committing to doing it.  I have several friends who are doing it and they have lost an amazing amount of weight.  I know the key is just to stick with it.  To be honest, this is actually my 4th time trying this diet but this time I'm going to do it.

When I stepped on the scale this morning I was shocked at my weight.  My starting weight is 199.2.  I am so depressed about that number.  Plus I feel like crap.  I know my weight is out of control.  I am out of control.  I tend to focus on food when I'm dieting not the outcome of my goal.  I know my life will be better if I get myself under control.  But as I write this there is a part of me that is very scared.  I don't know why but it's something that I need to figure out.

They say that journaling is a great tool to help you loose weight so that's what I'm doing.  Everyday for the next 40 days I will post how I'm doing and what I ate, good or bad.  I only have to follow this for 40 days by then I should have made smaller portions and healthy eating more of a habit than a burden.  After the 40 days I eat a more normal healthy amount of calories and add exercise to my plan.

I know that the next 40 days are going to be tough but I know that it is important to my health and future to do this.  It's just 40 days.  I can do this.

Shel


Breakfast:
1/2 grapefruit
Coffee = 14oz of water
1tbsp of milk

Thought:  Still hungry and I have to pee.  I'm going to make some tea right now

Snack:  tea = 16oz of water

Water total: 30 oz so far. 
Water goal:  70 oz to 128 oz

Lunch:
2oz of chicken breast
spinach
sauteed onions and celery
some water

Thoughts;  This was really good and I enjoyed it.  To be completely honest, I would really like something sweet right now. 

Snack: 
1 wasab toast

Snack:
Apple
Coffee=16oz water

Dinner:
Chicken salad
16oz water

Water total: 62oz

Snack:
16oz tea

Water: 78oz


I made it through the day.  Yeah for me!  I'm still hungry but eye on the goal.  Well, have to see how my weigh in goes tomorrow.  I've been peeing so much I'm sure I lost water weight. 

Until tomorrow and remember nothing tastes as good as thin feels,
Shel

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Pain

I have been in so much pain lately.  I have a pinched nerve in my back that goes around my hip and down my thigh and through my knee.  Half the time I can barely walk.  Tonight I had a total break down.  My boys weren't cooperating with me and I was in a lot of pain.  I just lost it.  Crying.  Yelling.  You name it and I did it.  Well, I didn't resort to violence. 

We have to move out of our house for 10 days to get our hardwood floors redone.  I have to pack up everything in our house.  All the moving and lifting is causing me problems and increasing my pain. 

Tomorrow I go to the doctors to find out what is going on with my pain and hopefully they can help me solve it.  I want to be able to walk again.  I feel like I'm 80 years old not 40.  I need a walker. 

I'm just complaining.

Shel

Monday, February 28, 2011

I started working out again today.  I have had somethings that went against my desire to workout; I got sick, had shin splints, construction, and last week my kids had the stomach flu.  But I'm back working out although it was a struggle to do it.  I almost didn't.  I sat around coming up with all the reasons why I can't do it, I'll do it tomorrow.  Finally I decided to just do it.  I knew I would feel better afterwards and be proud of myself.  Plus it was only going to take me an hour.  I want to do more than just the one workout but I need to start out slow.  Once I get this workout down and I'm feeling better about working out I will start to add.  So I did the one workout.  I'm proud of myself for this.  I'm really trying to breakout of my old habits that have kept me fat and away from the life I want. 

I know that this isn't an exciting post but neither is my life.

Cheers,
Shel

Monday, February 7, 2011

Construction

One morning in mid November we awoke to a huge leak in our living room. It had been a particularly stormy and rainy November and the tiles on our roof had been blown up in the nigh'ts storm. There was a stream of water pouring down on to our hardwood floor.


We called insurance and they came out to make a claim.

Well, it turns out that we are getting a whole new roof. They are currently fixing the ceiling in our living room. It had that nasty popcorn crap and we got that scrapped off. Now they are fixing the walls and then they will paint it any color we want. Plus, because our hardwood floors were damaged they are going to fix them too. The only problem with fixing the hardwood floors is that there are no seams in them. They are continuous through out the house so to fix that one spot they will have to do all the floors through out the whole house. Which makes me very excited.

Unfortunately, my house is a complete mess. Our living room is in our dinning room and in the hallway. I have no place to go in my own house. The only place to sit is in our bedroom. So it is needless to say that I can't do much today. Which is OK really as I'm not feeling well and I'm suppose to be resting. But at the same time I'm pulling my hair out because everything is such a mess. I can't walk down my hall without bumping into something. With any luck it will just be another week and almost everything will be done. The floor is a whole different story. When those get done we have to remove everything form the house and be out of our house for a week. That will be exciting. We are think that we should go and visit Keith's family in Utah but we'll see. We haven't heard from the insurance company about the floors yet so that whole thing is still up in the air. I know I shouldn't hold my breath but I really want my floors done.

So, it's going to be a lazy week for this lazy housewife.

Laryngitis

This past Monday I wasn't feeling well. I didn't think very much about it. We had just started tech week for Cinderella which we would open on Saturday so I thought it might be nerves. I went to rehearsal and tried to take it easy but that didn't seem to help. Saturday came and my voice was bad but I thought it was better than it had been. Opening night went really well. I didn't have much of a voice and it gave out half way through my song but all in all it was a very good opening.


Sunday, I woke up and I had absolutely no voice. I tried to speak, nothing. I drank 2 cups of 'throat coat' and the Mane Stage remedy 'Gypsy Cold' and 'Echninatia'. Nothing helped. I drank apple cider vinegar and honey and all I got was an upset stomach. I had to talk my song and I could barely do that. Even just saying my lines killed my throat. I was embarransed for myself but I also felt bad for the audiance. I feel that the audiance knows when an actor isn't up to par and it's distracting to them. I was afraid I took away from the whole experience of the play. I was also afraid that I let down my cast members and directors. I hope they won't hold it against me for getting sick and not cast me in a lead role again. Being able to trust your actors is a big part of casting a show. Even though I had no voice I felt like it was a good show. My director has ordered me on vocal rest which was no surprise. I have rehearsals this week but I will just be listening not participating.

Today my voice isn't that much better. I can speak for a little while but it wornout fast. If I have no voice by Wednseday I will go to the doc to see if they could give me anything to get through the next weekend.


If there is anyone out there please pray for me. I really need my voice back.

Shel

Monday, January 31, 2011

Threw up

I think that this is all I need to say about today's workout.  I was going to get up and workout before my family got up but I didn't feel well so I stayed in bed.  After I got the kids up and out and I had breakfast I felt worse.  My stomach didn't like the apple and peanut butter I had.  So I decided to lay down before I worked out to see if that would make me feel better.  NO!  My stomach felt worse.  In spite of that I tried to workout anyway.  I only got through half of it before I threw up and the half that I got through was a complete struggle.  So that's how today's workout went.  I'm hoping that this nausea is only a one day thing and I will be back up and going tomorrow.  Right now, I'm going to shower and lie down again.  I'm shaky and still feel like I will throw up again.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Shin splints

I had such a good workout plan.  I started off so well but all good things must come to an end and mine ended with shin splints.  To make matters worse I had to go to an audition and dance on them.  The next morning my shins were swollen and I could barely walk on them.  I took two days off to rest my shins and let them heal.  They were feeling much better so I decided to exercise.  That turned out to a big mistake.  My shins swelled up again and every step felt like my bones were breaking.  Then it was my husbands birthday and then my 40th birthday.  Well, needless to say I didn't exercise and I ate like a pig.  It has now been 10 days since I stopped working out and my shins still hurt.  Tomorrow I will workout again shin splints or not.  I'm a little nervous about it because on Tues the roofers come and put a roof on our house and on Thurs someone is coming to scrap off out popcorn ceiling.  Plus, I'm openning "Cinderella".  I'm going to workout but I don't wanted to workout in front of strangers.  The popcorn ceiling people will take over my living room so come thursday I won't even be able to exercise until they leave on Friday.  So we'll have to wait and see how this week of exercise will go.  Even if I can't exercise I can eat well.  So at least I can do that.  Just keep rolling, just keep rolling (and that has nothing to do with the fact that I am fat).
Shel

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Goal for 2011

Tomorrow is the day that I start my new program  I talked about earlier.  But here are a few of my goals that I have for the next year.

1)  Lose 40 lbs.

2)  Get my novel down on paper.  It doesn't have to be finished just down.

3)  Audition for the 5th Ave theatre.

4)  Get my jewelry website up and going and my jewelry in some shops.

5)  Get my 5 year old ready to start school next year. 

Well, that's it.  I don't think these goals are anything that I can't accomplish if I keep forcused and put my mind to it.