Monday, July 25, 2011

I'm Raw

Weigh in: 194.6

I decided not to do the HCG diet at least not now.  I have decided to go Raw.  I tried it once before and lost weight and felt great.  I stopped because it was time consuming and expensive.  I've learned a little more about it and really feel like I can do it this time.  I'm not 100% raw, I like meat.  I will have meat 1 or 2 times a week. 

I choose this because I can make things that I enjoy and I don't have to feel guilty about eating them.  I made cranberry macaroons yesterday that are wonderful and because they are raw I can eat the whole batch if I want.  I didn't but I could. 

I'm also very excited about this diet.  I don't even think of it as a diet but more of a life style choice.  When I tried the HCG diet I felt depressed and deprived when starting it. 

So this is me know.  I'll keep you posted.

Shel

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

HCG day 6

Weigh in:  195.4 lbs
gain: 1.6 lbs

Ok, so the last two days have been really bad.  I haven't followed my eating plan.  I had an audition and I think I was a little stressed by it so I ate my way through it.  This is what I always do.  But today, I'm determined to be good and follow my eating plan.  I'll let you know how I did later today.  I'm at war with myself.

Shel

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Day 4 &5

Weigh in: 193.2 lbs
loss:  1.6 lbs
total: 6 lbs

Day 5:

Weigh in:  193.8 lbs
gain:  .6 lbs


Yesterday I broke down and ate poorly.  This seems to be what I do around this time.  I already started today poorly by eating 2 fajitas.  I will do better for the rest of the day.  I'm weak and gave in, I'll be strong for the rest of the day.

Shel

Sunday, July 17, 2011

HCG day 3

Weigh in:  194.8 lbs
Loss: 1.8 lbs
Total:  4.4 lbs


I've decided not to post what I eat, that's boring.  I will just post whether or not I followed my diet food plan. 

Yesterday I went to Walmart and I noticed what was in peoples carts.  The skinnier people had fruits and veggies and other healthy products.  They also had some junk food but everyone needs a treat.  In the carts of the fat people there was all this junk.  There were chips, donuts, candy, frozen dinners, and other processed food.  In reality the only difference between the two carts was that thin people had more fruits and veggies while the fat people had more crap. 

What irritates me is that the thin people could eat the crap without consequence.  Where as the fat people will pay whether they know it or not.  I would love to be  the the type of person who could eat whatever they want.  I had a cart that looked more like the thin people's carts but I'm still fat, why?

I'm not delusional I know that the thin people live a much more active lifestyle than the fat people but that doesn't take away the frustration.  I know many thin people who do nothing and stay thin.  They call it good genetics.

Can genetics really be the answer? 

If it were all about genetics than there would be no place for hypnosis or behavioral therapies like Weight Watcher and Nutria-systems.  So can changing the way you think change your genetics?

There is a school of thought that environment effects the genes not the other way around.  In the old school, scientist believed that genes effected the environment, so our genes make us who we are.  The new school believes that the environment we live in effects our genes.  My school of thought, it's both.

I don't think it's as simple as either or. 

The way we live our lives today in America, our environment, has obviously effected our genes.  Our world is filled with ways to effect your genes.

Take grocery shopping.  Have you ever bought produce, fruits and veggies?  They are expensive.  If you are shopping on a budget, you will use up your money very quickly.  But you would be surprised how far you can stretch your dollar when you buy crap.  For $4 I bought 24 bags of top raman but it cost me almost $7 for 3 grapefruit. 

My husband always tells me that we need to eat better.  I agree, we do.  Then he says that he is sure we could save money on buying food.  This is an oxymoron or a paradox to me.

An oxymoron because saving money and eating better do not go together.  And a paradox because I can't figure out how to do that.

My husband has never gone shopping with the kids.  Well, I can't say never, he would argue that, but rarely.  When you shop with kids they want all the bright fun looking food they see.  Which is another one of the problems with our environment, we think of food as fun.  We think of food as entertainment not nutrition.  When we think of nutrition we think of dull, boring food.  No excitement.  Americans need excitement from their food. 

In 2007 the US Surgeon's General said that nutritional foods need to be more affordable.  Yes, they do need to be affordable but even if they were I don't think people would know what to do with them.  The problem is that Americans are lazy.  We live in a world where everything his handed to us.  We don't have to wait for anything.  If you miss a movie in the theater it will be out on video in a few months or you can downloaded it on the Internet from a pirated site.  So the idea of getting all these nutritious ingredients and putting them together and waiting for it all to come together seems overwhelming and too hard compared to when you have all this processed food at hand just to rip open and eat, barely any waiting.  Honestly, I think people would spend a little more for the convenience of crap food vs nutrition while all the long they complain about being fat. 

As a fat American I feel that our problem is cost & convenience.

I don't think that this is something the government can do for us.  No matter how much they want to nanny us changing the way a person thinks is a personal issue not a governmental one.  To quote Michael Jackson, "If you want to make a change...start with the man in the mirror."  I'm not saying that the government can't do things to help but it's really up to the individual to change their own life.

The 'man in the mirror', is a topic for another day but I do have some thoughts on that.  Sometimes I just don't recognize the person staring back at me.  Stay tune for further thoughts on that.

Well that's enough BS for one day.

Cheers,
Shel

Saturday, July 16, 2011

HCG day 2

Weigh in day 2:  196.6
Loss:  2.6 lbs.


Don't worry, I know that the weight loss is just water weight.  On this diet you have to spend two days loading, eating any crappy food you want.  By the time your done your so bloated you can't help but loss water weight the first day of the diet.

I'm going to have to be honest, I did eat some rice a roni last night.  I couldn't help myself.  I had to clean my kids plates, right?

Today's Food

Breakfast:
Grapefruit 1/2
Coffee

Lunch:
fish 4oz
2 celery sticks
water

I thought I was full after eating this but it turns out I was still hungry.  I went to the store and thought I would die of starvation.  But at last, I popped some gum, sugar free, and was fine.

Snack:
coffee
apple

Dinner:
Steak
sauteed veggies

It was really hard to make dinner for my family.  To sit with them while they ate the food I made for them was torture but I made it through.

Tomorrow I will tell you about my shopping trip.

Cheers,
Shel


Friday, July 15, 2011

HCG

So, today I started the hcg diet.  On this diet you take drops and eat a 500 cal diet.  I'm nervous about this but I'm committing to doing it.  I have several friends who are doing it and they have lost an amazing amount of weight.  I know the key is just to stick with it.  To be honest, this is actually my 4th time trying this diet but this time I'm going to do it.

When I stepped on the scale this morning I was shocked at my weight.  My starting weight is 199.2.  I am so depressed about that number.  Plus I feel like crap.  I know my weight is out of control.  I am out of control.  I tend to focus on food when I'm dieting not the outcome of my goal.  I know my life will be better if I get myself under control.  But as I write this there is a part of me that is very scared.  I don't know why but it's something that I need to figure out.

They say that journaling is a great tool to help you loose weight so that's what I'm doing.  Everyday for the next 40 days I will post how I'm doing and what I ate, good or bad.  I only have to follow this for 40 days by then I should have made smaller portions and healthy eating more of a habit than a burden.  After the 40 days I eat a more normal healthy amount of calories and add exercise to my plan.

I know that the next 40 days are going to be tough but I know that it is important to my health and future to do this.  It's just 40 days.  I can do this.

Shel


Breakfast:
1/2 grapefruit
Coffee = 14oz of water
1tbsp of milk

Thought:  Still hungry and I have to pee.  I'm going to make some tea right now

Snack:  tea = 16oz of water

Water total: 30 oz so far. 
Water goal:  70 oz to 128 oz

Lunch:
2oz of chicken breast
spinach
sauteed onions and celery
some water

Thoughts;  This was really good and I enjoyed it.  To be completely honest, I would really like something sweet right now. 

Snack: 
1 wasab toast

Snack:
Apple
Coffee=16oz water

Dinner:
Chicken salad
16oz water

Water total: 62oz

Snack:
16oz tea

Water: 78oz


I made it through the day.  Yeah for me!  I'm still hungry but eye on the goal.  Well, have to see how my weigh in goes tomorrow.  I've been peeing so much I'm sure I lost water weight. 

Until tomorrow and remember nothing tastes as good as thin feels,
Shel